Teasing; Well mommy calls people mean names!

The continuing fall of modern society, man kind for many years has been falling from God's grace. Now times are worse than ever before, I was going to write about Black people and how they are becoming so ignorant while raising a generation of children twice as ignorant as they are. However I decided to include all races of people in this one, because people no matter what their color are really becoming evil. Today I heard, read, and was victim to this and so was my daughter. A white male child called her a "Bitch" today after he said he wanted to "bing, bang, boom in the bed with another little girl." I was reading a status of someone on Facebook where a grown woman was talking about fat people, her and her stupid "adult" friends began by saying "ALL FAT PEOPLE ARE UNHEALTHY". So I questioned how the hell this woman could know each and every fat person on the face of this earth and know that they were all unhealthy. Than I asked her to google what fat was and what deemed someone to be "fat" and someone else not to be. However she didn't but she continued by calling me names by looking at my picture which I have posted on Facebook, she called me names for actually several posts. I was ALMOST pulled into a match of wits with her however I know she had known so I decided to just end it as well as unfollow the female who was just a friend of my cousin's and was always posting stupid shit that made me think she was an ass to begin with.

Now all this has me thinking that people are out there fucking for lack of a better word because many aren't making love, any way their fucking, their making babies BUT their not doing things like going to college, graduating high school, continuing their education beyond college, reading books (besides sex novels & garbage), going to church, volunteering to make a change for something or someone. Than these people are having these children than teaching them. . . . .well nothing because they have really learned NOTHING in their own lives. So we are ending up with children that curse at adults, call other children bitches, fight all the time, stay outside all night long, do nothing in school, fail to grow into mature people. I mean how can they be lead in the right direction when their own parents aren't going any where?? This made me sad, this really upset me much more than it should, it's not about this stranger calling me fat or the little boy in the school yard, even though I am pissed about that little boy saying anything to my child. I am more concerned with the fact that this is the way in which life seems to be heading, the world as we know it is becoming a living HELL!! I mean are we no longer safe in this days society, from the losers in which are breeding faster than those that are more educated can handle. I mean seriously I was watching a White woman at the bus stop trying to get her two boys to stop running all around, she wasn't doing very well she just stood there smoking and screaming at them. While they ran, said bad words and bothered others while they waited for the bus, I was sitting in my car and one of the boys even ran over almost touching my car while running from his mother. Than as she called him three Black children walked passed called his name as to mock his mother, than told the boy to keep running as they laughed. I mean where the hell is the respect?? What ever happened to the day when children got popped for their behavior? Better yet what happened to the day when ADULTS acted like good examples for their children to model? As this "adult" posted these names on Facebook about me I wondered were her children in bed, were they read to tonight, did she pray with them, did she do their homework with them, did she talk to them about their day at school, did she teach them anything today? I wonder if she was proud of herself for calling someone whom she didn't even know names. I wondered if this was something she did every day, but what good had she done today? What did she do to teach a child today? It's really getting sad, I guess Obama should just build more jails and lighten the gun laws because the animals are running wild, it seems that their complacent in their ignorance, their settling for low ceilings, dirty neighborhoods, substandard educations, raunchy neighbors, and stupid, ignorant children that are growing into stupid ignorant adults!!!

Oh pretty baby......

"Your just too good to be true Can't take my eyes off of you"

Since I can remember I've wanted to build a huge loving family, people I'd be able to share my every mind tingling moment with. As I a child I could remember stories of the others, like this brother or that sister that I had only heard about in stories. I used to have fantasy play dates with these faceless siblings, known to me only in a few faded stories that my father told me about. Just first names was all I knew of them, spellings weren't even taught to me, last names unknown by the man that had fathered them. Oh how I wanted so badly to know what it would be like to have more than just one sister in my days and nights. A sister that was as opposite to me as day is to night, or wrong is to right. I imagined what their mothers were like if they'd been beaten as often or as bad as me. I wondered if their faces looked like mine, or their cries went as unanswered as mine had gone. I imagined that one day they'd come for me and save me from the abusive life I had lived which was the only one I had ever known. I used to wonder if I had an older sister would she save me from the flying fists of the sister that hated me so much. Or the mother that drunk, drunk, drunk and fucked, fucked, fucked anyone that gave her the time of day or any bottle that came past her way. I dreamed of this family that would not hurt me for anything in the world, a family that made me the center of their universe, the family that prayed over their meals, sang corny songs together over holiday tracks. I knew that the family I was born into was incapable of love, I wanted to start off fresh, I wanted to create a family like some people create their crafts. I wanted to paint in children, post on some pets, mold a huge loving home, I wanted to whittle a tree house full of playful youths.

"You'd be like heaven to touch

I want to hold you so much"

Life throws so many curve balls our way, that things seem to always have to be adjusted to deal with these new twists or turns. God blessed me with the strength to love, the desire to be loved despite the fact that I had no desire for males I was still blessed with a beautiful daughter. A child that admirers my every being, wants to spend her every moment sitting up under me. Now as nine years have gone by the desires of my heart have yet to be fulfilled, the rooms aren't filled with children's little laughter, sounds of tiny little steps, happy hands all over the place. I asked "her" and she said she'd oblige me, so God brought fourth a child for me placed it inside of her womb.

"At long last love has arrived And I thank God I'm alive You're just too good to be true Can't take my eyes off of you."

Despite the fact that this new life form is coming into my world via the fruit of "her" womb and not mine means to me that your not less of my family but more of a blessing to me. I've wanted to hold you from the moment I learned of your existence, I prepared a place for you to live with me in forever be a part of the love that I have created. I so wish that the world could be a better place for you to see, I so wish that the sun would shine on a more peaceful planet aligned with stars that shine as brightly as your eyes. I so have wished for you to be the most precious of gifts to humanity, I have so be dedicated to loving you more than anyone could ever believe.

"Pardon the way that I stare

There's nothing else to compare

The site of you leaves me weak

There are no words left to speak

But if you feel like I feel

Please let me know that it's real

Your just too good to be true

Can't take my eyes off of you."

Despite the decisions I've made to bring fourth the creation of your life, the envy, arguing and even the strife. You I so dearly love, with all of the strength that I have with all the blessings from above. I pray for your strength, intelligence, and health to be in my life through out all of the days I have yet to live in this life, your my beautiful baby no matter what my status or wealth.

"I need you baby and if it's quite alright

I need you baby to warm the lonely nights

I love you baby trust in me when I say, oh yay

Oh pretty baby don't let me down I pray

Oh pretty baby now that i found you stay

And let me love you love you oh baby."

"Your just too good to be true

Can't take my eyes off of you

You'd be like heaven to touch

I want to hold you so much

At long last love has arrived

And I thank God I'm alive

You're just too good to be true

Can't take my eyes off of you."

Are parents raising their children? Or just opening the door an sending them outside to play?

Good Evening,

I'm sitting here on Moreland Road in Willow Grove, nestled in this quite
community just minutes outside of the noise, crime and filth of
Philadelphia, PA. It's pretty dark outside because street lights are few and far between one another. It's really quite here at night usually except for my ghetto complex filled with old drunks and young fake scared hustlers that rarely travel outside of a five mile radius. Any
way I'm watching a bunch of, what looks like 12 year old skate boarding
and cursing their little ignorant heads off. No, the police haven't stopped passed and moved them on even though their on private property, Yes, the police did drive past in the last few minutes but of course the children don't have the 'complexion' to draw attention from the police.
However these prepubescent nuisance were causing much attention to those near by them, throwing skate boards, screaming at each other, every other word being a four letter one, all this within this sleepy quite well patrolled shopping area.
My actual attitude wasn't with just their behavior or even with the lack
of action from Abington nor Upper Moreland's 'finest' even though they played a large part in that. However I'm wondering where their parents minds were at this moment in time. I mean it's 10pm, rather dark in the burbs, there are many trees, few lights, I mean even at a certain time some of the traffic lights are even turned off or blinking yellow. Out of the three young men the largest appeared to weigh a hundred and twenty pounds soak'n wet! The other two were barely four feet tall, and might not have even weighed a hundred pounds. Now this was maybe a hundred yards from the mall and feet away from closed stores. Why aren't they
even thinking of heading home? Is it just that parents don't place strict enough demands on their children during the summer months? I mean I've got a nine year old and even though we live in a some what peaceful neighborhood, but a rather rough complex I'd NEVER let my child play outside a mist the darkness of night.

These same people are the faces I see when I watch 48 Hours Mystery, claiming 'that things like this don't happen here!' I mean bad things happen EVERY WHERE, especially when parents aren't mindful of where their children are. Danger lurks every where, other children may do something when bored that maybe harmful or dangerous to themselves as
well as others. Within this area there are a number of registered sex offenders as well as other types of criminals that aren't required to register their location. People often think these types of criminals are minorities or are located in so called 'urban' areas like Philadelphia. But within neatly manicured lawns and large southern style homes, or neat little ranchers live the same types of people that reside in all the other areas. It's just quietly kept, secretly cleaned and hidden away. It's the type of criminal to fear, the one that's able to hide
amongst the walls of suburbia. Another thing is what types of things their saying or doing when their not around. I'm sure people know whether or not their children curse
when they think no ones listening. All a parent has to do is keep on open ear when your child's on the phone, or with a friend in the room when they think your out of ear shot! I mean come on what happened to the detective in people? I'm a watcher, I notice things that happen that
others don't, I feel people's feelings, I study eye movement, facial movements that let onto a person's feelings or thoughts. I watch, I listen, I talk, I question, I focus, I feel, I perceive what's happened, happening and yet to come. I used to think everyone was like me, but I know their not now. I connect with few people from time to time that are like me, I wish more parents would be like myself, more people need to be in tuned with what's happening around them. Maybe people would be better to one another, maybe people would be able to get together and really change the world.